Archive for May, 2006

Thud…. That’s where I was at this weekend. I hit a psychological wall and have been trying hard to bounce back and find my balance again. After my last treatment on Friday, I just sort of assumed that life would be different…I have been through so many changes over the last several months and have... »

It’s done. I have officially finished my very last radiation treatment. It seemed so surreal and anticlimactic. I went in just like every morning except that today I brought the baby in because everyone wanted to see her. I got undressed, laid on the table…and it was over. I got back up, got... »

Guess who I’m holding in my arms as I type this from HOME? Yesterday, a lightbulb seemed to go off in Zoe’s head, and she took all of her bottles continuously…and gained 63g. This morning the nurses assured me that they would beg the attending physician for me to be allowed to take her... »

Quick update. Apparently, Zoe wrote her neonatologist a letter last night. I hear it went something like this: Dear Dr. XPlease send me home. I promise to eat and grow so that I will soon be strong enough to steal…I mean borrow…my big sisters markers and color on moms walls. Also, my two year old brother... »

A little picture update: Aidan is still asking himself “who is this baby and why did mom set up a crib for her in her room?…I wonder what will happen if I poke her eyes?” Zoe is already busy defending herself….”Don’t you poke MY face, buddy” (just check out her tongue!) Little Miss Zoe relaxing in her... »

span class=”postbody”> 9am radiation drive home and get my mom’s stuff into the car 9.45am drove mom to hospital to say good-bye to Zoe drove to bank while she was in the nicu 10.45 headed over to the airport to drop off my mother 11.15am drove to Alex’s school to sign him up for KidStop and to Andrew’s school... »

I was going to wait to update my blog until I brought little Miss Zoe home…I thought a ‘homecoming’ post would be the next one…but…apparently, it isn’t. Last week, I kind of had a mini-meltdown after my NICU visit. The whole “feeding and growing” b.s. has definitley just gotten me down…First, they started her... »

The last two days I’ve felt much better. First, Zoe started taking a little at each feeding (and sometimes an entire bottle) and second…I’ve gotten a little more sleep. I asked my mom to do the 6pm and 9pm feedings and haven’t gone in for the midnight feeding. I hate doing it, but I... »

Warning: Long, rambling post ahead…at least that’s what I anticipate….I apologize in advance…I just want to be sure and record this for myself….and those of you still reading will have to muddle through, I guess. I keep thinking that I’m doing really well…and in many ways, I am…I find that I am laughing a... »

So…current drama aside…who needs drama anyway … my big issue that I was going to post about today is breastfeeding. I’ve been waiting and hoping that my milk would finally come in beyond the few dribbles that I’ve gotten….It has been so disappointing to me because I nursed all of my children and... »