Archive for February, 2006

Puberty has entered into our home in full fource! Yesterday, Andrew’s (age 11) class went to see the 7th and 8th grade production of ‘Alladin’. He had been really looking forward to it. I picked him up from school and asked him how the show was. “It was sooo HOT, mom!” Hot? Alladin was hot? Hmmmm….He... »

I have been thinking a lot about why I suddenly feel so emotional. I guess initially things still seemed so “up-in-the air” and I felt the need to hold it together for me and for Thomas and the children. Now that I know that the treatment is doing what it is supposed to and... »

I know that down times are to be expected…I do…it’s just that the last week or so has felt low. Today I had 3 dr’s appointments all in a row. I literally spent from 8.45 until 12.30pm in the Medical Office building with my 2 year old…shuffling from room to room…and it all... »

I’m not sure why I feel the need to write about this….except that it’s been on my mind since yesterday. I went out in the morning with Aidan to our regular ‘hotspot’…the toddler play area in the shopping mall. He loves going there and climbs and plays like a wild indian. I was... »

This morning while I was getting dressed, Alex (age 7) came into my room and said “Mommy, if you weren’t here, I’d scream at the top of my lungs.” I turned around to face him and he added “if you died, I would kill myself so that I can be with you…” I didn’t... »

Well. today is`definitely a better day…it’s amazing what a little sleep can do! I actually managed to sleep in until 7.30am which is really a record for this past 10 days. I think the prednisone really affects my ability to sleep. The week that I’m taking it, I wake up about every 45... »

I’ve had a really frustrating week and I find myself feeling really down right now. First of all, I went to the perinatologist to have another u/sound done of the uterus and get his recommendations. The guy ended up being a total jerk. He walked in the door and said basically “you poor girl.... »

Alex had his 7th birthday party on Saturday and it was such a blast. We had it hosted at a local gymnastics club. Seven of the boys from his school showed up and they literally bounced, jumped and tumbled for nearly 2 hours straight. Every picture of Alex that I have is with... »

It’s been a sobering few days….chemo on Monday (finally the 1/2 way point!) followed by incredible exhaustion this time. I really hadn’t experienced such significant feelings of being tired until this round. My dad and his wife are visiting from TX and without them here, I don’t know how I would have managed. Interestingly,... »

I felt so upbeat after my appointment on Wednesday, and then for some reason yesterday, I just crashed. I know I shouldn’t get online and read about bad outcomes, but I did….and then I started feeling a real sense of dread and hopelessness. The hardest part about going through all of this is the... »