The Dawkter's Wife - It's all champagne and caviar now … dahling

The Loony Bin

November 12, 2013

Joy

Last night, I dreamt that I was running in a marathon with Andrew.  I felt like I couldn’t keep running, but I wasn’t allowed to stop.  Even though I was exhausted as I ran, I was filled with an unexplainable joy as I ran next to him.  It felt like I couldn’t go on and at the same time, I didn’t want the race to end.

I woke up this morning with many complicated feelings.  Andrew’s autism spectrum disorder sometimes makes me feel like I’m pushing through day-to-day without an end in sight.  I get tired. I feel defeated.  Today, I allowed another feeling to come into play.  Joy.  I am so happy to be a mother … so blessed to be his mother.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Sorry, the comment form is closed at this time.