Today is day 2. It seems a little silly to point that out, but since the first days of changing eating habits seem to be he hardest for me, I think it will serve me well to celebrate little successes early on. Yesterday, I planned on going back to my Medi-Fast meals but for whatever reason, that didn’t happen. I almost forced myself but I realized that if I was going to have to strong-arm myself into eating the meals that I wouldn’t be able to stick with it for long. I chose instead, the path of moderation, which included protein shakes, a Jenny Craig meal and a single portion of dinner. I went to the grocery store later and picked up some frozen Atkin meals, deciding impulsively to try out a lower carb version of eating.
Are you noticing a pattern yet? Right. I own cases of Atkins protein shakes (vanilla and chocolate), an entire cupboard full of Medi-Fast meals, a shelf on my pantry filled with Jenny Craig food, and now … frozen Atkin meals. The truth is that I don’t know how to eat anymore. I have been ‘dieting’ for so long that I’ve lost any sense for what normal eating is. There is a part of me that believes in the magic of a certain plan. I know that will have to change. The only time that I had any meaningful weight loss was when I ditched the idea of a right way to eat, stopped excluding food groups, and just ate in moderation.
I know I can’t do Medi-Fast anymore. I had some success on it two years ago, but I gained it all back. Now I’m just burned out on the meals. My mom sent me the Jenny Craig food. She has been successful with the plan. The meals are ideal for bringing with me to campus because they don’t need to be refrigerated. I can stick with those for school days. I guess I’m stuck with the low carb meals for the week since I bought them already. I will just need to be careful not to go overboard and start really excluding foods. That is usually the first step to failure for me.
I walked yesterday for 35 minutes with the dog. That’s 15 minutes more than I had planned, so I feel really good about that. A couple of years ago, I was jogging 3-4 miles/day. What a difference. I feel sad that I’ve gotten so out-of-shape again. All I can do is start over though. If I keep up with slowly working on adding exercise, maybe I will get back into jogging again. I hope I can. My goal by the spring is to be able to jog a mile. That isn’t very far, and I think it’s realistic. This year, I hope that I won’t let our long, cold winter stop me from exercising. I have the treadmill set up for icy days. The real trick will be to keep this up.
So … my first day was a success. On to day two.