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August 10, 2011

A quiet moment …

I’m having a somber couple of days. We all spent last week in Wisconsin at our regular haunt enjoying fun, sun and family (well, you know … the word ‘enjoy’ being open to interpretation when it came to the teenagers!) I spent some time with my friend with lymphoma before we went and then we went out to lunch when I got back. It was good to have a chance to talk and figure out all of the miscommunications that have happened over the last few months. It was a relief, actually, to get it sorted to a degree.

Today she let me know though, that her visit yesterday at Mayo wasn’t what we had all hoped. Her cancer didn’t respond to the CHOP. She has been admitted to start ICE. Her doctor said that if after two rounds they aren’t successful that … “they are in trouble”. She and her husband had the “if I don’t survive” talk, and for the first time, he let her go there and they were able to have a heart-to-heart.

I just feel …. sort of … like something is missing today. I don’t know what it is or how to describe my feelings. I just yearn for some quiet moments to think. So for now, one of my favorite pieces from All the Small Things. Pictures of our vacation to come later.

  1. I’m thinking of you all, Kris. Big big ((((hugs))))

    Comment by sylvia — August 11, 2011 @ 4:03 am
  2. Lots and lots of hugs Kris!

    Comment by Path201X — August 12, 2011 @ 6:15 pm
  3. Thanks guys. It was complicated by the awkward fact that once again these “miscommunications” popped up. She told me that the treatment didn’t work and that she had cancer all through her bones. Her husband told me later when he dropped off their daughter for a day that there was “good news” too, in that all of her other tumors had shrunken or were gone. There was some difficulty really deciding whether the uptake in her bone marrow was from the injections she had received to help her bone marrow produce more blood. Thomas didn’t really understand why they didn’t do a bone marrow biopsy to confirm that this was indeed cancer and not an effect of this. I’m not sure that I have the complete story or that I ever will. I do understand that she is terribly sick and I’m trying to focus on that. Not everyone handles illness the same way and there are and have been miscommunications. Still, it is difficult to receive two very different messages and know what to think. I really appreciate the support.

    Comment by ~me~ — August 14, 2011 @ 11:52 am

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