Which brings me to Amanda.

Which brings me to Amanda.
So here I was feeling sorry for myself tonight …and then I ran across a video of Sheryl Sandberg’s Barnard College commencement address.
How can I set the scene for you?
Aidan and Zoe head back to school tomorrow after their winter break and I laid in bed worrying about oversleeping until I reached the tipping point. For me … that time is 4:30am. I came downstairs, turned on the fireplace, grabbed my 17 year old’s sweatshirt off of the back of my living room chair to wrap it around me until things warmed up, fired up my Keurig, and turned to Google for some online time. My internet usage has been drastically reduced over the last month or so. My mil’s visit sort of kicked off my virtual hiatus. After she left I flew to TX to visit my mom for a few days. When I got back, I was in a race to finish getting ready for Christmas…something I barely managed to do, if I’m honest. This year I scaled down our celebration quite a bit. My mom flew out to ring in the new year with us and is here through Wednesday.
It was a craptastic December. Frankly, it was a craptastic Fall, but I think we might have covered that a few times here already!
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I … am a people person, and it was nice having family here, but I can only do people in doses. It is very hard for me to get together with people IRL no matter how much I care about them. It actually provokes a lot of anxiety in me and consequently, I end up feeling really exhausted after a couple of hours. There are very few people who I get together with regularly and those who have actually spent nights at my home, with me in a hotel, or with whom I share a vacation slush fund …. well….that’s deep….and also anxiety provoking, but I get over myself because I value the together time. This means that I was more exhausted than usual. I am still so tired that I feel like something is physically wrong with me.
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